Singer, songstress and guitarist Sara Jean Kelley has released a video for her song, “I Am the Ocean” directed by Thomas Chi. The song appears on her recent Black Snake EP. The video ranges from the songwriter meditating alone in a wood paneled living room to destroy everything in the room with a baseball bat with “unapologetic wildness”.

Kelley comments on the idea for the video and the origin of the song:

“Shortly after recording the Black Snake EP, I got the image of this video stuck in my head. Every time I listened to the song ‘I Am the Ocean’ I imagined myself starting in a meditative space, slowly standing and knocking things over like a cat, then gradually becoming more and more insane and destroying everything in sight. I just felt right. Something about the madness and the beauty of seemingly going insane in an enclosed space made so much sense to me.

I wrote this song coming out of a marriage and coming into a pandemic. It was equal parts freedom and containment. I found the ocean to be the perfect metaphor for the human psyche: vast, mysterious, terrifying, infinite, and wild; all while being contained by the earth’s shore— the ‘brain’ if you will. How could I incorporate the essence of that without showing literal images of placid waters next to tidal waves? That is where this video was birthed.

Unapologetic wildness: that is what this song and this video aims to embody. As a female identifying person, particularly, the societal norms imposed upon me are to make myself smaller, try not to take up too much space, and apologize for my existence. Nearly every woman I know has been told from a young age to calm down, don’t act crazy, cover up, or some variation of any of those; and it’s my prerogative to challenge that norm. Feminine energy is incredibly powerful; that’s why people fear it and try to contain and tame ii. Portraying an earthly manifestation of ocean energy was just that: vulnerable and intentional destruction. Owning and taking up space. Showing the full spectrum of emotion. Feeling both the overt and nuanced qualities of creative expression. Allowing myself to be crazy, to be wholly me.

And on top of all of this: it’s just really fun to get in a room and smash everything with a baseball bat. Perhaps joy is the final piece of the puzzle.”